Lyrics
How could I forget your love?
You done spent it all and gave your life up
How could you begin to trust?
You seen all my deeds and still you choose me
Disgust and Shame consume my brain
My hate to defame, I'm swearing your name
More than a mood or an attitude
It's in my veins, my bloods profane
Entropy: my DNA
Enemy, hiding in the shade
L-I-E spells my name
I'm "he" to blame. I done staked the claim!
Nothings safe
If you were smart you would not stay
I dig my own caves, I set my own traps
Just waiting around for these walls to collapse
And you know they will, I'm broken beyond broke
My fractured, shattered, scattered soul
I can't get it right, no matter what I do
Even if I knew the whole truth
What do you see?
Sitting up there looking down upon me?
Is it King to Peon? Or Gold to Dust?
Is it Master to Slave? Or Father to Son?
You call me out to the front line
You offer me strength and still I hide
You know I'm questioning even now
But seeing what I've seen, how could I ever doubt?
First, you get me out the waters
Then you calm the storms
You raise up my loved ones
Still I'm blind seeing miracles performed
All my life I've been building up a case
You pay the debt, then you clean the slate
I fold again, I abuse you
I need some help, then I use you
And yet somehow I feel
Hatred, you're the one that I've hated
Faithless, in the face of the greatest
Heinous, carry fault standing blameless
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In a quiet moment
A scene appears
Fully exposed
Flesh is pierced
You're up above a crowd all alone
Your heart prepared to atone
Your voice pours out with one last cry
Then I catch your eyes as you choose to die
What are you doing? Are you out of your mind?
Get off that cross! Don't waste your time!
This soul is lost and you cannot find
A creature more damned with disguting crime
I don't need silver to betray you
Or to rally other people to slay you
A billion times I've denied you
And worse yet, I decry you
I want to change, but it's hard to believe
That there's anything worth saving in me
Dear God, My heart, I know you see
Please, Lord, help thou my unbelief
Mark 9:24
And straightway the father of the child cried out, and said with tears, Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief.
